Fun Summer

I have really enjoyed being home with the boys this summer. We have Bible School this week. Then I will be working at school some the next week. I am really depressed that summer is almost over! The boys and I have had fun just being together, and I know our time will be limited when school starts back. Jackson is 4. He will be in kindergarten next year, and it blows my mind! It seems like he was just a baby! He loves to learn new things and is always asking questions. He doesn't forget a thing.he always reminds me to take my "pocketpurse" with me. For some reason, he loves to call me a little lady He is really into Lego Duplo right now. He loves to build and play.

Brooks is 2! He has become quite the talker! He is a backseat driver and tells "this way or that way." I love how he says button. He says it "buhton." He can get moody when he is tired. I tried singing our songs one afternoon last week. "No sunshine, Mommy. No tinkle (twinkle), Mommy." I also love when he says, "Oh no-a mess and there it is!" He also loves to ask, "Where'd it go, Mommy?" He points out every truck he sees and loves to make siren noises! He calls Jackson's name a lot. It doesn't sound that much like it.This boy loves Curious George!  He has gotten very attached and become very much a Moma's boy. I have loved it.

My heart hurts knowing that I won't be the one to get them dressed for school or fix their breakfast. I won't get to take them on their first day or hear about all of the fun they had. I won't get to fix them lunch or get Brooks to take a nap. We won't get to watch the trash truck or color together or play with boxes. I love watching the boys play together and sing. It just makes me sad that I am missing out on all of the little things. We are so blessed that my mom keeps them. There is no way I could leave them with anyone else.

 I know there are weekends,  but we spend most of those cleaning and getting ready for the next week. I feel blessed that I am able to spend the summer and other breaks with them, but I am still really depressed about leaving them. I know that realistically I can't stay home. Obviously we need health insurance with Brooks! We have bills to pay. I have to work if we ever have a chance of getting out of this house! I am very jealous of friends who get to stay home.

I know there will be tears my first day back(mine not theirs- they will be excited to be back at Noni's!). For now, I am going to soak up every minute of summer we have left and enjoy all of the blessings we have.